How To Make Friends With Your Family - For Dummies

"kaylangan nyo lang ako pag may kaylangan kayo!"

wasak ba?paulit ulit yan umiikot sa utak ko na parang sirang plaka. yan ang unang beses na narinig yan sa nanay ko at sa totoo lang, sapol at sagad xa hanggang buto. ang pamilya namin ay isang regular na uri ng pamilya. pero dahil sa hirap ng buhay, uri ng pagpapalaki na naranasan ng mga magulang ko at ang ama kong nasa ibang bansa, minsan iniisip ko ng dahil sa mga factors na yun kaya hindi namin namalayan lahat na nagiging manhid na kami.hindi lang sa paligid, sa problema, maging sa relasyon.

MANHID

a six letter word that i usually heard with my ex, with opang and then now. i wonder, if i am insensitive with others feeling could it be that i am insensitive with my own feelings as well?..it makes sense right?unless im selfish. i realized the i have never got any conversation with my family or ask them what they are up to. but i love mu family and they are my priorities. i can give up anything for them. i guess im like this because this how we wee brought up. we have to deal any pain that the world can give to us yet unknowingly, we become insensitive.

i dont know how to start. we cant be like this forever. it will come a time that each of us will have there own family which will broaden the gap. yet i dont know what to do. My mom, she's not happy. She's tired. I am sorry for her. You know why i want to go abroad right away not because i want to satisfy my curiosity but rather i am thinking that it will expedite everything that i wanted to accomplish for my family. i want us to have our own house in a place not like this so that she wont be stressed anymore with her neighbors. i want to tour her in different places in the country. but i dont know how to start.

The Past You..and The Current Me

you know what exactly is the reason why i dont trust right away?..because im vulnerable and stupid. I dont know where should i stop, forget and let go. funny thing, it wasnt me who started it.

i remember you, i still remember it and i guess that will always be with me. those memories. it's depressing sometimes, though there is no point of being one. nothing happened. i cut it out before it get started. i didnt regret it. i know what i did was right. because you is you and me is me. we both know each other what are we like and the conflicts. were wise enough not to put us into a mess. yet i dont understand why i am feeling this way. is it because i run away?what you think?did i really run away?...

after all these years, we were never been the same again. i dont know you anymore or myself, i guess.